Saturday, July 26, 2014

Pillow talk. . .

When my mom passed away my dad gave me her wedding rings.
Eons ago she had her original center diamond reset into a different ring.  I have talked about taking that stone and having it put back into its original band for years so I could wear it.
I guess a certain little girl had been listening.  Listening for a quite a few years because here it is. . .
 
I discovered the ring box on my pillow one night with a short little note "A late birthday, early Mother's Day and just because I love you."  When I opened the box I paused to wrap my brain around what I saw.  I recognized it as my mom's ring but I was certain it was in my jewelry box.  I immediately went to look for it.  Of course it wasn't there.  She made this happen all on her own.  No help from Dad and a huge secret and surprise for me.
Maddison had the original ring all put back together, repaired and polished ~ just as beautiful as the day my dad placed it on my mom's hand.
Wearing it feels like something from a dream.  A lovely, warm and welcoming dream.
 
 
This girl of mine is a gift.
I was sad and teary about what seemed to be my weaknesses screaming at me all at once. I felt as far from beautiful as I have felt in an extremely long time.
We share a journal.  It's just between the two of us.  Randomly we put it on one another's pillow.  This was on my pillow late one night. . .
 
Her words and total belief in me was heaven sent.
My heart is overflowing.

Friday, June 20, 2014

The Celebration

I have tried a few different times to put this experience into words.
It's not easy to put your heart onto paper.
So I'm going to leave it in my heart and share a few a pictures and some words that will fall short.
 
With every temple dedication there is a Youth Celebration which is an evening of dance and song and testimony.
It comes with an incomprehensible amount of work from the seen and unseen.  I had the opportunity to be a "Captain of 10" in my ward and that allowed me the blessing of watching this Celebration unfold.
 
Numerous wards from all over this desert land practiced their numbers on their own for a couple months.  Then everyone was brought together for two "super Saturday" practices.  The 2nd practice culminating in the live performance for our prophet.

I never could comprehend the enormity of bringing 12,000 youth together until I saw it happen myself.  We gathered at Discovery Park, an outdoor setting with the Gilbert Temple gleaming behind us.
The first practice was long and hot.  Beginning at 7 a.m. and no plans to call it done until late into the evening.
Our piece of Arizona had been experiencing an extended dry spell and today the sun was relentless.  We began to see the affects of that wear down our little warriors.  After the lunch break we gathered for the big rehearsal and I worried.  The kids were dragging and loosing steam fast.  I worried if I could offer enough hugs, spray bottle squirts, Starburst candies and shade with my tiny umbrella.  I worried if I could keep my little group of 10 motivated, how were we going to keep 12,000 kids motivated?"
And then slowly, clouds that were not previously seen or even forecasted for that matter, gathered together and a soothing shade cover spread over the entire park.  It provided the relief that each of us needed.  Bodies and minds were rejuvenated and faith was increased as we felt the comfort of His pavilion.
I felt blessed to have witnessed this part of the Celebration.
 
 
The very next Saturday, we gathered again.
This time there was 100% chance of rain.
As a group of Latter Day Saints we had been praying for the rain to come, to quench this dry desert.  But today those prayers were still.  We needed to push a pause button.
 
What I witnessed this day is forever etched in my heart and soul.  I search for the right words, even when I am trying to tell others about it face to face.  Thankfully I was able to share this experience with Brent and Davis by my side.  I'm beyond grateful that we will have this between us forever.
 
 
 
All morning long the dark, threatening clouds rolled around us.  There was one pocket of parting clouds and it hovered over us all day. It truly looked as if angels were holding back the storm.


 About half an hour before the live performance 12,000 youth gathered in the basin of the park.  The show was about to begin and they were waiting for their prophet to arrive.  It was incredible to watch the enthusiasm and feel their tangible energy even with impending storm clouds weighing heavy above them! And the prophet came (in between the drizzling rain drops I might add) and the kids were jumping around and singing like they were welcoming a rock star.  The feeling was nothing short of joyous!
 
  
And then the heavens were opened and the rain came down.
It rained.  And rained.  And rained.
It came in buckets, in pails, in sheets, in cats and dogs.
Whatever your phrase. . . that's how it came.
 
What happened? The rain had been stayed all day.  Why now?
Even earlier when the drizzle began I uttered my own prayer - please keep the rain away.  But that prayer was washed away in the downpour.
 
Soaked to the skin, makeup washed away, mud covered shoes, a river beneath their feet ~
The show began and they danced!

 
Often we think that we know how something should or will play out.  Often we think that in order for something to go a certain way or for people to have a certain experience that this is what needs to happen.
But our understanding is so imperfect and that's okay because it is in those moments we learn the most.  Tonight I was reminded of something I already know ~ that our Heavenly Father has a perfect plan for His children. He teaches us, helps our faith increase and our knowledge made sure as part of that perfect plan.
 
Watching the youth give absolutely everything they had was humbling to say the least.  With their personal Titles of Liberty soggy and drenched in hand they sang these words:
 
It's easy to talk about faith,
It's easy to do what's right
when there's no sacrifice.
It's easy to preach about heart
And say you'll be faithful and true
when you know there's nothing to lose.
I could do so much good in my life,
and help my people in this land,
but what is there to live for if I'm not true to who I am?
I choose this day...
I choose the person I will be.
Do I fear man?
Deny who I am?
And all that I believe?
Will I stand tall?
Will I soar or do I fall
when the spirit calls, will I be strong?
Will I obey?
I will choose this day!
 
 
I was in awe of what unfolded before my eyes.
And my tears mixed with the streaming rain.
 
12,000 flags strong, they did it!
They chose to stand as believers and defenders this night!
 
So what about all those prayers to stop the rain, well. . .
my dear sweet friend said it best on her blog.  I borrow her words here:
 
"Last night His power was manifest through His children.
They needed to know who they were. That they were His children. He could have showed them His power but He wanted them to see theirs."

 
I feel so blessed to have been a witness to this event.  But I have to say my favorite and most memorable part of the whole night was watching my son, under the sheets of falling rain, participate with such enthusiasm.  At the end when I was finally able to look into his eyes, he was practically bursting and just kept saying over and over "That was so cool!  It was so fun!  I'm not even cold!"  I have taken a metal picture of that moment and etched it into my heart.  On Sunday he bore such a sincere and grown up testimony of his Savior, and the truth he gained of a living prophet having just stood before him the evening before, and the power of choosing.
 
Sometimes the miracle isn't in sparing the rain,
but in sending it.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Highlight: Love—the Essence of the Gospel—Thomas S. Monson





I'm preparing for my RS lesson.  This has touched my heart.  I have watched it repeatedly.  The prophet's voice, with obvious love and tenderness, resonates in my soul and I'm reminded . . . "Come, listen to a prophet's voice and hear the word of God."

Monday, April 21, 2014

Time is getting away from me...

Somewhere over the past few months we've had some great things happen.
 
Like Cooper having a birthday and turning 11 and being able to blow the pack of bubble gum at his final Pack meeting as a Webelo.
And when it comes to Cub Masters, Brother Farnworth is the Master of the Masters.  Thank you Brady for always going above and beyond for these boys. (And for helping me survive Rechartering!!) 
 
 
Cooper earned his Arrow of Light and now it has its place on his new Scout shirt. I'm very grateful that my husband is so good to take the scout journey with my boys.  Every boy should have a dad as willing.

 
Valentine's Day came and went.
I enjoy this holiday of celebrating love.
Cooper's 5th grade class Valentine was tricky.  It had to be cool but something the girls would appreciate.  We ended up with this...

 
Remembering back to when I said "You better not propose to me on Valentine's Day" and then he did because he knew I wouldn't be suspecting anything.  It just makes this day extra special.

 
 
And for him...
a little daily reminder of my love.
 
 
And a little something for the products of our love...
 
 
Davis got Imagine Dragon tickets for Christmas and Maddie was invited to the concert by a friend.  It worked out nicely that Davis and his buddy could drive with the cool big sister and her friend and not have to be dropped off by the parents :) 
When did these two grow up?  Seriously, this picture makes me smile and shed a tear all at once.

 
Brent's dad made a trip to visit and we were able to take him through the temple Open House.  A great picture of two men I absolutely love! 

 
And brotherly love and support is never more evident than when one brother is suspended from the ground via duck tape. 

 
Boys.  I love 'em!


Monday, March 17, 2014

From Groundbreaking to Dedication...

Just a little over three years ago,
we took a picture of our kids in the fields of where our Gilbert temple would stand.

 
Cooper would be baptized just a couple of months later...
 
We watched the temple rise from those empty fields...






Then they were 8, 12 and 15 years of age.  Now they are 11, 15 and 18 years old.  So many wonderful and yes, even hard things transpired in those passing years. 
 
On March 2nd, 2014 we participated in the dedication of our completed temple.
Only 7 minutes from my front door to the doors of the temple.
My heart is overflowing with gratitude.


Tuesday, February 18, 2014

a few more Decemember moments...

We discovered Waffle Crush and what a wonderful discovery it was!
It was part of our advent activities and it will be a repeat :) 
 
Another advent activity was to put a list together of all the titles or words we use to refer to Jesus Christ.  Then we each chose one and used our Sunday down time to study up on it.  We came together at the end of the day and shared what we had learned.
It was a wonderful way to end our last Sunday of December. 

Brent's Priest Quorum got together to finish up the 12 days of Christmas for a couple of their buddies.
I love to see these young men taking care of one another. 
 
Tiger boy and Wolf boy bring a lot of personality to the group!
 
Our celebration with the Slade family is always a favorite tradition!
Megan and Luis added little man Slade to the lineup of darling babies and he's just too much!
Cooper is so good with the tiny ones.  Here are the cuties reading about visions of sugarplums or maybe it was trucks.

And Kristi added baby Emerson. A sweet little angel with curls like her brother :)  One of the best parts of having Kristi and Megan in my life is that although we believe differently in some matters it never interferes with our love for each other.  I honestly laugh with these girls so much it hurts!

 

Goodness.  No words to describe how much I love this family.
Dave and Maggie are truly some of my most favorite people.
When Maggie hugs me and kisses my cheek, I'm pretty darn sure my mom's love is wrapped around me too.  It's sweet, safe and comfortable. Perfect.

Finishing out the break on a bike ride with my boys.
Although I often wish for snow during Christmas,
it's gorgeous days like this one that make it absolutely okay that there's not.

Monday, February 17, 2014

December happenings in fast forward...

He had a birthday ~ Shout hooray!
Davis turned 15. 
He is now sporting a cool looking leather jacket and
trying his hand at shot put and discus on the track field.
He rocks.
 
Hannah came to visit for a week.
Maddie needed some girlfriend time.
I only wish her momma could have joined her!
 
I was happy that my phone camera was able to capture the beauty of the reflection pool at the temple Christmas lights.
 
This girl finished up her first semester of college...
being named on the Principal's List.
She rocks too.
 
We found our Christmas tree!
 
Hot chocolate weather set in!
Mmmmm.....
 
We had a lovely Christmas together.
My absolutely favorite part is having my kids all to myself.
 

 

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Choosing a garden to tend...

It's been long enough that I can't actually remember the last time we took our Thanksgiving holiday on the road.
But this particular year our youngest nephew/cousin on the Brown side was set to be baptized on Thanksgiving Day.
 
Traveling long distances with my three kiddos is so much easier now.
Gone are the days of car seats, sippy cups, blankies, binkies and reaching my arm into the back seats in the most obscure ways to satisfy the tiny travelers with fishy crackers and fruit snacks. Now they pacify themselves with naps, music, movies and good 'ol conversation.  (It's true we have to intervene as referees on occasion here) But for the most part it's smooth sailing.
 

 
I'm definitely the most restless of the passengers now but my awesome driver keeps me happy with m&m's and hand holding.
 
We made it to Peter's baptism by the skin of our teeth, screeching in on two wheels.  WHEW!
 
But I love to get these cousins together.
It really is fun to see these guys interact and play and hang out and enjoy their family. It's my favorite!






Brent's little sister and her husband were the hostesses with the most-esses.
It was great to be in the kitchen with my sisters in law and chat and catch up and laugh as we put the finishing touches on our Thanksgiving feast. The food was plentiful and delicious but I must say it was a beautiful thing to combine the sweetness and the importance of the baptism with the deep feeling of gratitude that fills the heart on Thanksgiving day.
 
I found this something significant to ponder...
 
"Both abundance and lack [of abundance] exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend.  When we choose not to focus on what is missing from our lives but are grateful for the abundance that is present - love, health, family, friends, work, the joys of nature, and personal pursuits that bring us happiness - the wasteland of illusion falls away and we experience heaven on earth." (Sarah Ban Breathnach)  
 
When I look at these three blessings I choose to tend more carefully to THIS secret garden.  Along with my sweetheart, they are the abundance in my life.
They are my heaven on earth.

(at the LA temple grounds)
 
 
 
 
And the temples make it possible for the gardens of this earthly life to continue to flourish eternally.