Is Forever Enough

Before you read this post - please click on "Lullaby" on my playlist at the bottom of my blog. Ready?? Okay - Cooper came stumbling into my room at 5:13 a.m. this morning. A very rare occurance. I can count on him sleeping until 7:30 or 8 every morning. So he comes to my bedside and whispers "can I get in bed by you?" I lift up the covers and he climbs right in. He is restless for a bit and can't seem to hold still. Maddie comes in at 5:45 to shower and Brent gets up to get ready for work. Now it's just me and Coop. I notice that he is perfectly still and sleeping again. I look at him across the pillow - he is rolled onto his side, mouth slightly open, breathing soft and steady and his hand has fallen against my cheek. I can easily place a little kiss on his five year old pinky, which I do. My thoughts turn to yesterday afternoon when he was given four shots (required for kindergarten registration) and his uncontrollable fit of resistance. I somehow want to throw a fit just like that - right inside my heart! Ever so quietly, time is whisking my kids away from me. Knowing Cooper to be the raucous redhead that he is, I don't know when I'll get another moment like this one with him, so I take a deep breath and place another small kiss on that perfect pinky. A phrase from "Lullaby" plays through my mind and I wonder if a mother's heart is strong enough for this. Sighhhh. . . I love you little man!